Can't Forgive You (Natural structure)

posted 19 October 2002


When did it go wrong?
When did we lose touch?
When did you become a man
I saw but couldn't touch?

When did you stop listening,
Was it before I stopped talking?
Why did we still drift apart
When we both saw it happening?

Did we want it to stop?
Was it out of control?
Some predetermined plot,
Part of some greater whole?

You thought you knew me,
But you only knew yourself.
Knew what you thought of me,
Listened to no one else.

So when I said what I said,
Things you didn't want to hear,
The things you weren't expecting,
You gave in to your fear.

You unleashed words that stung
That cut me to the bone,
That tore my confidence away
And left me all alone.

I feared the wounds were mortal,
But I only bled inside
We told each other "it's okay"
And both knew we had lied.

I don't know how I hurt you,
You only hurt yourself,
But I know how you hurt me
And can think of nothing else.

My wounds still bleed, they will not heal,
not with time or change of heart.
No amount of soothing speech
Will smooth away my scars.

I love you for the man you were,
And hate what you've become.
My best friend has turned enemy,
The man who killed his son.

I do not want to hate you,
I'm desperate to forgive,
But my pain will not let me,
You're guilty while you live.

Every time I see your face
I hear the echoes of your voice,
You're hoping for forgiveness
But you've left me with no choice



When did it go wrong? When did we lose touch? When did you become a man I saw but couldn't touch? When did you stop listening, was it before I stopped talking? Why did we still drift apart when we both knew it was happening and wanted it to stop? Was that not something we could control, some predetermined plot? I know you thought you knew me, but you only knew yourself. You knew what you thought of me, and wouldn't listen to anyone else. So when I said the things I said, the things you didn't want to hear, the things you weren't expecting, you gave in to your darkest fear. You unleashed words with bite and sting that cut me to the bone, that ripped my confidence away and left me all alone. I feared those wounds were mortal, but I only bled inside. We told each other "it's okay" and both knew we had lied. I don't know how I hurt you, when you only hurt yourself, but I know how you hurt me and can think of nothing else. My wounds still bleed, they will not heal, not with time or change of heart. No amount of soothing speech will smooth away my scars. I love you for the man you were, and hate what you've become. My best friend has turned enemy, a man who killed his son. I do not want to hate you, I'm desperate to forgive, but my pain will not let me, you're guilty once you live. Every time I see your face I hear the echoes of those words, I try to give you comfort but the scars reopen on my hands.


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