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It's been one long year\r
\nSince I changed your world,\r
\nSince you changed your view of me.\r
\nIt's been twelve long months\r
\nSince those hurtful words,\r
\nThose words that still haunt me.\r
\n\r
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It's been far too long\r
\nSince we really spoke,\r
\nSince we shared a knowing smile.\r
\nIt's been ages now\r
\nSince we talked alone\r
\nOr walked for half a mile.\r
\n\r
\n

It's been three long years\r
\nSince I made up my mind,\r
\nTo change my world, to tell the truth.\r
\nIt was two long years\r
\n'Til I had the guts\r
\nTo bring that truth to you.\r
\n\r
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I don't know how long\r
\nIt will be until\r
\nWe get back to where we were.\r
\nOr how long it will be,\r
\n'Til we forget\r
\nHow much we hurt each other.\r
\n\r
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I don't know how long\r
\nIt'll take to forgive,\r
\nBut I know that I'll never forget,\r
\nI'll not look at you\r
\nWithout hearing those words,\r
\nAnd seeing your face wet.\r
\n\r
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But I miss the way\r
\nYou used to look,\r
\nAnd the way we used to talk,\r
\nI so miss the way\r
\nWe used to hug,\r
\nIs it now too late for that?\r
\n\r
\n

I cannot forget\r
\nThe hurtful words,\r
\nI can't forget the face,\r
\nTil I can forget,\r
\nThe good times before,\r
\nAnd put new ones in their place.\r
\n\r
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\nIt's been one long year since I changed your world, since you changed your view of me. It's been 12 long months since those hurtful words, those words that still haunt me. It's been far too long since we really spoke, far too long since we shared a glance. It's been ages now since we walked alone and talked about nothing much. It's been 3 long years since I changed my world, since I made up my mind to tell the truth. It was two long years til I had the guts to bring that truth to you. I don't know how long it will be again til we get back to where we were, I don't know how long it will be, til we forget how much we hurt each other and let each other be. I don't know how long it'll take to forgive, but I know that I'll never forget, I'll not look at you without hearing those words, and seeing that look on your face. I miss the way you used to look, I miss the way we used to talk, I miss the way we used to hug, can we please do that again? I can't forget the hurtful words, I can't forget the look, til I can forget the good times before, and replace them with good times new.\r
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